Monday, April 27, 2009

Babies and Puppies = Picture Perfect

Just a sample of the Doggy Beach Party =o)
Will post more photos soon!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Astor Place and Union Square

Spontaneous shooting! I've been carrying around my little compact camera (Sony Cybershot)and brought it out whenever I saw anything that interested me. It's with this camera that I discovered my love for photography and hadn't taken it out since getting my beautiful DSLR Nikon D80. Had lots of fun just casually shooting as I went about my day and night :)

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Random thoughts

It's been a bit quite on the home front... maybe you've noticed ;o)

My daily grind: Wake up early, go to the gym, go to work, work, run home, stick something in my mouth and go to bed. This has been the bulk of my everyday. Pretty dull. But that's not a bad thing. I was in much need of dull. Not enough of it can make a girl a little nutty.

The dust has finally settled from post wedding planning, personal life falling to pieces and moving out from home to live with crazy roommates, big blowout fight with crazy roommate and then moving back with ex to help each other out... dull is a welcome change of pace.

But still. I'm getting bored here.

So to shake things up again, I'm starting to gravitate towards what had held my attention before I was engaged: Photography! I love, love photography and it was my primary focus before I found myself in the midst of all things wedding. I'm excited to be getting back to it. You'll see more of my amateur attempts. I'll be focusing on landscape/New York for the most part.

Come May, my mama is moving up from Florida to come live with me in NY. Me and my mom have a great relationship and I'm excited about her moving here. I'm still trying to figure out if living together is the best idea for me, even though it's simply the most practical. Rent is expensive and sharing a 2 bed room will give me more of what I want versus if I tried to find a studio for myself...but still. Do I want to live with anyone at all? I'm not sure. We'll see how this pans out later. Seems to be the latest trend in my circle. 2 other girlfriends are moving in with their mom to save money. Maybe it's just a sign of the times.

Other things to look forward to in the near future:
  • Doggy birthday I'm taking the kids (my dogs) to at the end of this month! It will make a great photo opt and I think it promises to be fun and hilarious. My cousin's dog is turning 10 and she is throwing him a beach birthday party. Too cute!
  • My cousin's bridal shower! I am so excited for her! She's getting married this summer.
  • My little brother is graduating from college and my cousin (I have lots of cousins) is graduating from med school! Much to celebrate!
Stay tuned ;o)

Monday, April 6, 2009

Unapologetically me

"If you want to improve, be content with being thought of as foolish and stupid" ~ Epictetus

I need reminders like these to put my doubts to a subtle whisper from their usual overpowering roar.

I live with my ex still. I've been helping him get back on his feet from his bout of unemployment. And during this time, we simply live in the present. Many times we carry on as though nothing has changed. We call this time 'savoring' the time we have left with each other. We love each other very much. We love our life together.

In the weeks to come, I'll start saving up what I need to move out on my own. I'm both excited and scared about the whole thing. And to top, I question if I'm doing the right thing. "Couldn't I do whatever it is that I need to do right here, with him?" No, I just don't think so.

I have come to realize that my great dissatisfaction has nothing to do with my sweet, loving, ex but with myself. I want to be more authentic. I want to be unapologetically me. And this I need to do on my own. I need to go down this road. This is simply what I need... even though sometimes I wish it weren't true.